what if.

finally,

i'm back.

it's been a month i didn't updated my blog lol.

no mood to write,

plus busy as usual(excuses:P)

well.

how to say?

it's pretty good+pretty sucks Jan lol

idk.

went to 10's house bbq and have an overnight during New Year.

that's the most beautiful memories for me now;)

it was FUN.

don't need a bunch of friends,

we can still like some crazy fellows too;)

love that feeling:)

talked till 4am,

and the next day all of us feel like sleepy as fuck lol

but still,great.

the next day,

it was great and fun too:)

but well,

keep on losing money:P

plus i was tired,

so didn't have much fun haha.

really enjoy gather with you guys.

yeah.

i don't know why people should look down on others that are different with us.

maybe they'll have some different,

but we are all human being right?

think about that on their side.

what if you're different with others?

looked down by people,

laughed by others?

you should know that.

most of them won't ever want to be like that.

we shouldn't like this.

rumors.

horrible things.

honestly think that rumors can kill others.

we don't even know the truth,

but then we just spreading out the rumors.

what's the point?

sigh.

that will only make others hate on those people.

rumors kill it all.

suddenly think about it.

when we're playing computers,sleeping,eating,doing homework or whatever,

what's others doing right now?

is there anybody having sex now?

is there anybody starving now?

is there anybody are facing the dead now?

is there something big is happening now?

we don't even know.

i feel that i'm so small.

never think yourself are good,big enough.

there's fucking many things you don't even know.

don't ever tell me what should i do.

i know what am i doing,thank you.

pretty right?;)

oh and,

pretty good to meet Hayley's sis-Jiana;)

she is a gorgeous and nice lady:)

talked to her before,

but not as much as this time.

feel so blessed,

she is perfect;)

hope she can really remember my birthday:P

Late night sex, smokin' cigarettes

I try real hard but I can't forget

Now in a heartbeat, I would do it all again

Now I see that you and me were never meant

Never meant to be now

Now I'm lost somewhere